Goodreads ~ Paige Dawson: the mother of a murdered child and wife to a dead man.
She has nothing left to live for … until she finds her husband’s handgun hidden in their house.
Why did Ryan need a gun? What did he know about their daughter’s death?
Desperate for the truth, Paige begins to unearth her husband’s secrets.
But she has no idea who she is up against, or that her life isn’t hers to gamble - she belongs to me.
Chloe, Paige's teenage daughter, disappeared ten years ago and one of her body parts was found in the river. Two months ago, Ryan, Paige's husband, committed suicide. This pushed Paige over the edge and she became even more self-destructive ... she was always drunk, she was taking too many pills, she was pushing away the few people that loved still her, she was getting arrested, etc. Strange things started happening at her house and she swore it wasn't her doing them but no one believed her. She found a gun hidden in her late husband's desk and wondered why it was there.
It got a bit tiresome with Paige always drunk and stoned, yelling at her mother-in-law, lying to her brother and father, etc. She wasn't likable but she was in pain and dealing with it by self-medicating. I kept hoping she would snap out of it and get help. But until that point, I still was fairly engaged in the story.
Then it took a really weird and strange twist. That's when it lost me and I found the story too dumb and unbelievable. I'm not into the kind of story or subject matter where it went and I was sorry to see Paige's quest to find out why Ryan did what he did fall by the wayside ... she didn't, in fact, "unearth her husband's secrets" as the book description said. To me, there were still too many questions left unanswered by the end.
Not my kind of a story ... had I known what it was really about (no spoilers!), I wouldn't have read it.